Movement??

Last night and today I’ve been struggling with feeling like I’m not even pregnant I’m just getting fat! You know how your mind plays tricks on you?! Well, I feel so good, or I should say so “normal” lately, that I don’t feel pregnant. So, my mind starts saying, maybe something happened, and your just gaining weight because you're eating so much, that’s why your stomach’s getting big. I know it’s stupid…I have to fight the enemy daily sometimes!

In fact, when I told Nathan how I was feeling, or what I was thinking, he said..."Are you crazy?" (Not in a mean way) "I can totally tell you are pregnant. That is definitely a pregnant belly...you aren't just getting fat." He made me feel better, but I still have to fight the thoughts the enemy likes to send my way.

On a side note…I actually think I might have felt the baby move last night, but I only felt it once and haven’t felt it since. I felt these 4 quick light taps on the right side of my abdomen. At first I thought I was just feeling my pulse again, but it was just those four and then it stopped and I didn’t move or change position. (Sometimes when I bend over or put my elbows on my knees I can feel my pulse in my abdomen…I know it’s my pulse and not the baby, because I feel the pulse in my neck and it matches…but this seemed like it was different.) Again…I’m not 100% sure, because it was so quick and only that one time, but it’s the first time where I felt like it could have been the baby and actually told Nathan about it.

I can't wait to move forward in this journey and one day hold this precious one in my arms! I know you're thinking it's crazy for me to be struggling with thoughts like I've been having the last two days, but I didn't say I was being rational! :-) Stay tuned...I'm sure I'll have more crazy rants and feelings as I get closer to the big day!